WHEW!!! LOL!

Deep sigh of relief-another week ends well-or is it just starting???:)
David left earlier tonight-left and then showed up at work for an extra kiss goodbye right before he left again-he is AMAZING! We had an awesome weekend, as usual, and I am tired but incredibly content in EVERYTHING:)
We decided to shelf the idea of a move to Durham for now, though the kids are pushing for it hardcore. I can't possibly handle another huge life change right now, and honestly, I think they have been through enough of that as it is. Life there could be easier, cheaper, more liberal if nothing else, but I really want to make the best of here-HERE is where I have made my life-our lives, and I just don't want to walk away from that quite yet.
I am not sure what is keeping me here-the homeschool community is stuffy and basically hell bent on creating lives of shelter and sameness for themselves and their children-that was a five year struggle that just wore me out-the constant preschool attitude was exhausting. I gave and gave and gave of myself only to find that I was simply used in the end-I tried to convince myself otherwise, but too many people have pointed out the issues of mom immaturity and insecurity that constantly filtered through my life for five years. I mean, there was just too much lying, back stabbing and dishonesty to continue to look past. Half the kids I knew were extremely immature as well...I knew too many kids with no education, bad manners and, well, many needed to be medicated and I think that some were even kept at home to remove "officials" from finding out about the truth. We even knew 10 and 11 year olds who couldn't read yet and the parents didn't seem to care...I wish I could say otherwise, but my experiences with the whole concept, in retrospect, were very negative and unhealthy. A lot of what people SAY about homeschoolers was very true in some of the cases I came in constant contact with...Enough on that...I have moved on and it has shown in my life:)
My kids are doing AMAZING. My sis-in-law referred to our lives as "idyllic", church friends have pointed out that my kids are so incredibly well adjusted after "all the crap", and I receive regular kudos on their growth and personalitities...Our "lose" of our homeschool group has only catipulted us into a serious stream of education and the kids are progressing by leaps and bounds. Had I known that this kind of energy would produce such results...Well, I would have focused more on the family homeschool program then on our group experiences. They certaily don't need the socialization:) LOL...
Work is ok...What can I say. I adore those that I work with even though they can drive me nuts to no end-I have to face the fact that they have become my family-they adore my children, treat me with such respect and just make me laugh. Money could be better, but hell, I am paying the bills:)
Woe, I have SO much to do for tomorrow-we start our new Geography curriculum, and the kids are flying through their math books. I have MANY things to scan for their notebooks and MUCH to do to get ready for Kody, who is EATING UP school these days:) I cannot WAIT to shove this stuff into the reviewers hands:)
Ok....I wanted to post before another month ended...LOL...:)
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