I realize this...After a long, long, night of serving drinks to very tipsy people...coming home to my children and a CLEAN house...Saying "goodnight" to a spectacular boyfriend who, while exhausted, didn't want to get off the phone...My life is pretty darn great;) How many single moms can say that??? How many people in general can say that??? Life is pretty great:)
I am consistently amazed by my man, David...He just continues to grow more and more amazing, more and more sexy, more and more adorable, more and more incredible, each day. He just needs to BE HERE is all, and things could really be quite wonderful. I beg for that day-I want it, need it, more then I even allow myself to admit.
My life is good. My job is fun-the girls I work with are so amazing, such beautiful souls who just simply never cease to amaze me with their energies, their beauty, their sense of comedy. The guys are equally as amazing, of course with the way they look out for all the girls, the way they joke and smile. They are truly good people.
My kids are, as usual, amazing...Drive me nuts....But amazing. Skye is just beautiful and has SO much potential it's scarey. Jordan has risen above so much insanity to become such an intriguing young man. Kody has more energy then a fast moving train, but his willingness to please, his sense of lightness is heartfelt. And Julian...He is just as sweet and adorable as the day he was born. He is a pleasure from the second I wake, til I fall asleep late, late at night.
School is better then ever; The kids are serious, two of four ask to do lessons on the weekends;) Skye is constantly doing research on the internet and has really gotten into writing research papers. I am prepared, lessons go smoothly and homeschooling just seems to "fit" in our new home.
So...Thngs are great and I just want to document my feelings...Late, late at night....I am still wired from a long night at work and feeling very deeply about how good things are...Just thought I'd jump on here and write a bit;)
That's all for now....I am headed, finally, for bed...:)
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Monday, July 07, 2008
This Devoted...
It's after 1am, technically a Monday morning in July...I have to get up at 8:45am to get ready for a double shift at work, and also a full day of lessons during my break and after I punch out...I am sitting here amongst a pile of printouts, curriculum and notebooks, prepping the kids for a day of lessons...Actually, a full week....We plan to visit my parents at the beach for two days and few hours from Wednesday to Friday, and a whole week of lessons needs to get done.
My reviewer, who is with the Harford County Public School System goes well beyond the law with her expectations of my family. I know this, but something deep inside of my ever challenge-seeking soul just makes me shut up and perform. She literally wants to see a workbook page dated for every single day between September and June with exception of the Christian holiday of Christmas. The fact that we are NOT Christian, and that we homeschool year round, and that the main reason we DO THIS is because we are NOT a typical minded American family, seems to be beyond her well educated reach....So....Basically, if my kids read a historical novel for three days in May, she wants to know where the daily work pages are and decides that they did nothing...
Crazy...Anyone who has EVER spent five minutes with my children can see instantly that they are WELL BEYOND children their ages-able to converse, debate and have opinions way beyond the average kid. I know this, and that is what keeps me rising to the challenges...But this workbook page expectations are incredibly "schooly" and rather exhausting...I mean, isn't conversation more interesting??? Seriously, when, since becoming an adult, have you had to relate your daily learning on a dittoed worksheet to prove your education????
I am so...SO devoted to this...I sit, here, after a days work as a bar waitress, having to get up and do it all again tomorrow, prepping work to prove our "intelligence" to some woman who doesn't even HAVE children, BUT who has a DEGREE in how and when children should perform and learn...So unrelealistic, so unworldly, so bureaucratic, so government issue....
We are so beyond that....But I am performing, because, if nothing else in life, I have learned to "perform".
I am devoted to this. I WILL do this, and I will do this well....MY selfish nature has not shown it's ugly self...My career-through divorce, single parenting and all-remains my children. I know that pisses many off, but it is what it is...Homeschooling has become my "degree" my "masters", perhaps my "PHd", and I am not planning to back off-only hit it much harder as the children thrive and progress....
It's going on 2am, I have to get up and sling drinks, teach a double day tomorrow to four kids on at least 7 subjects and do it all well.....Are you up to that??? Are YOU that devoted.....?
Probably not.....Bless you with all there is to be blessed with, but most likely not....
I am this devoted...
My reviewer, who is with the Harford County Public School System goes well beyond the law with her expectations of my family. I know this, but something deep inside of my ever challenge-seeking soul just makes me shut up and perform. She literally wants to see a workbook page dated for every single day between September and June with exception of the Christian holiday of Christmas. The fact that we are NOT Christian, and that we homeschool year round, and that the main reason we DO THIS is because we are NOT a typical minded American family, seems to be beyond her well educated reach....So....Basically, if my kids read a historical novel for three days in May, she wants to know where the daily work pages are and decides that they did nothing...
Crazy...Anyone who has EVER spent five minutes with my children can see instantly that they are WELL BEYOND children their ages-able to converse, debate and have opinions way beyond the average kid. I know this, and that is what keeps me rising to the challenges...But this workbook page expectations are incredibly "schooly" and rather exhausting...I mean, isn't conversation more interesting??? Seriously, when, since becoming an adult, have you had to relate your daily learning on a dittoed worksheet to prove your education????
I am so...SO devoted to this...I sit, here, after a days work as a bar waitress, having to get up and do it all again tomorrow, prepping work to prove our "intelligence" to some woman who doesn't even HAVE children, BUT who has a DEGREE in how and when children should perform and learn...So unrelealistic, so unworldly, so bureaucratic, so government issue....
We are so beyond that....But I am performing, because, if nothing else in life, I have learned to "perform".
I am devoted to this. I WILL do this, and I will do this well....MY selfish nature has not shown it's ugly self...My career-through divorce, single parenting and all-remains my children. I know that pisses many off, but it is what it is...Homeschooling has become my "degree" my "masters", perhaps my "PHd", and I am not planning to back off-only hit it much harder as the children thrive and progress....
It's going on 2am, I have to get up and sling drinks, teach a double day tomorrow to four kids on at least 7 subjects and do it all well.....Are you up to that??? Are YOU that devoted.....?
Probably not.....Bless you with all there is to be blessed with, but most likely not....
I am this devoted...
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