Life kind of Sucks...

Wow...What a week. The guy who I was so PROUD to have become my general manager at work got fired...My rare pure white, very sweet and gentle parakeet, Indy, was killed during rough play with my son-this is a HUGE deal right now....And, well, I am simply in a funk. The weather is cool and dreary, the seasons are changing in the gray, cold bare way, and things are just not as bright as I would hope for.
My issue listed on the blog before this one seems to have faded into the woodwork. I have had no other issue, but jeez, that was enough drama for a year...
I am just plugging away, working as much as possible, teaching the kids, trying to look ahead...I need a goal...My life is gray and dull because I have no real goals at the moment...
hmmmm....

this is sad...

ok..here's the deal...I have been threatened...This is my really sad attempt to make document of the fact just in case. I am frightened. My kids are frightened. In case anything happens, this blog is accessible by my computer browser toolbar....
I was sexually harassed at work. It happened last summer, and the guy was fired-not for that, but for showing up at work drunk. They hired him back because he was in trouble with the law, in jail, and needed to a job to stay out of jail and on probation. They did him a favor even though they knew it was a problem. I told them that I would not tolerate any bad behavior and would report it immediately.
He spoke horribly about me behind my back on Sunday afternoon-so horribly, in fact, that those privy to the words will not repeat them. Those that heard what he said were shocked and disgusted and embarrassed. He was fired on Tuesday. He is irrational and he scares me and I have seen him angry....After being fired, his "girlfriend" called the store and basically threatened me and the manager, and then I got a threatening email. I am alone, here with four kids who have always gotten "creeps" and bad vibes from him, and we are all scared to death. The police have been notified. They said they can't really do anything. The promised to patrol the street-we are a block from the dept....I have yet to see a car and I have been watching...Edmund is a drunk and a loser with nothing to lose...And he stands a chance at returning to jail at this point. He thinks, because he is a drunk and loser, that this is MY fault.
I need to make note of this...In case...This is so sad...I just want to raise my kids and be a mom...
October 4th, 1:11am.....Sami

Smiling, Five Days, October is HERE!

I love Fall...I really do....I love the crisp nights, the orange colors against the October blue sky, the feeling of anticipation as my favorite holiday-Halloween-approaches. I love digging out my decorations for the first day of fall and dusting off my ghost collection (yes, I collect Ghosts and keep them out year round:)) I love the cozy feeling of the early dusk, the feel of long sleeves on my arms, the idea of packing away clothes that I was excited about wearing in early May...
David has decided to spoil me to death with a Visa gift card that will surely fill my closet with many new Fall items, including something new for the wedding next Saturday (NOT MINE!!!!:)), and to top it off, he will be HERE in five days and I canNOT wait to touch him and see his beautiful face again....Are people my age allowed to be this in love???? LOL! It's been almost a year and a half, and I just fall deeper and deeper each day....My head spins with the very thought of him, and he is SO GOOD to me-to US, me and my children...God, the kids are NUTS about him, and he, them. Julian wouldn't even go to bed tonight without calling to say goodnight to him:)
I love football-the sound of it on TV, the colors of the jerseys, the history of the sport (which is very much MY history:)). I am SHOCKED, so SHOCKED, at todays score of the Ravens game and momentarily pretending that it didn't happen....LOL, that's the only thing that makes bartending on Sunday worthwhile....I LOVE having those old guys come in for beer, treat me like a young little blond...Then I lay my football knowhow on them and they are just dumbfounded:) I love talking "oldschool" with them...All the names I grew up with-Donovan, Unitas, Moore, Jones....I love telling them that my dad brags about my throwing arm in front of my children, I love the fact that my boys-and daughter-will always remember MOM as the one who taught them how to throw the ball...I love that part of my past-It's one of the few things that I remember with love about my youth....Football:) Who would've thought?

So, it's Fall, officially, and I am happy. In love, content, feeling a bit accomplished after a particularly good week of work....And, it's October:)

David will be here in five days....I CAN'T wait....Jeez, the weeks DO fly by, but I still want him HERE, all the time....I really do....This week is full of lessons, plans, work, chores....We are trying to get ready for a yardsale, but I am not sure when and how that will happen with meetings and weddings and visits from David going on....We want to get to Durham for a few days as well before the weather get cold....We still have money on our cards from funnest place on Earth-Frankies:) (go carts, batting cages, bumber boats, video games, laser tag, putt putt and more:))

Oh, I have to run-or go to bed actually-couldn;t run if you paid me to:) I am SO tired and Tomorrow is a DAY OFF! (of work, not much else:))

It's OCTOBER!!!!!!